The Surgery: On Thursday, July 28th, the surgeon opened up my abdomen to fix the “small incisional hernia” only to discover that the hernia was actually quite large (gee doc, I told you it was size of fist). Because of extensive scar tissue and repeated abdominal surgery, this took a lot longer than anticipated. There is also an increased risk that the hernia could return. A zipper would be far more practical than additional cutting/stapling.
After fixing the hernia, the surgeon then inserted/attached the j-tube (and the hole for the tube to go from intestines to outside the abdominal wall) and then sewed my innards in such a way to prevent movement which could tear the intestinal walls. Tube comes out of my abdomen about 3 inches to the left of my belly button.
He then made sure my innards were all nicely looping in smooth loops before he closed the 8 1/2 inch slash in my abdomen with 25 staples. The j-tube is secured with an attachment identical to the image —>
Hospital Recovery: As far as surgical recovery goes, I would say that the pain was about what I expected (perhaps even a little less – MORPHINE!). Down side to Morphine is that it makes me itch intensely. I remembered this and brought my bamboo back scratcher. However, after only a couple of days, I decided that the pain was the lessor of the two evils and they removed the morphine epidural. Pain was then managed with Norcol.
I think it was day 3 when they started the nutrition formula via the j-tube. They started it slowly but then kept amping it up every few hours. They wanted to go to max at 115 ml/hr. But anything over 80 ml/hr resulted in intestinal cramping. Even at 80 ml/hr there was cramping so my current rate is 60 ml/hr. (This means 16 hours on the pump daily to get the required 1000 ml of nutritional formula.) Ugh
There was an awkward (I’m trying to view it as humorous) moment when a nurse’s assistant walked in while the nurse was flushing the feeding tube and announced that delicious looking lunch trays were being passed out and I should be receiving my tray shortly. I said that I didn’t think bringing in a tray of food was a great idea and she was like “What’s the matter, hon? Aren’t you hungry? The food looks and smells wonderful today!” My nurse escorted the assistant out of my room and must have said something because I never saw her again – and the food tray was not delivered.
Another “oops” moment came when an intern commented that he noticed I hadn’t eaten anything according to the charts and could I give him an idea of how much I ate that day.
I actually felt sorry for the resident when he told me that my urine output was low and suggested that I try to drink more fluids. My “you have got to be kidding me look” quickly had him mentally back tracking and he had the decency to apologize for his insensitive comment. My empathy didn’t last long when he later prescribed a liquid pain medication instead of a pill version that I could dry swallow….hello?
I realize that they all probably see countless patients in a blur of activity but you would think that the big issues (CAN’T EAT/DRINK) would stand out a little.
I found no humor with the x-ray technician who attempted to shift my position by pushing on my abdomen while telling me to move over a little to the left. I almost decked her – would have if I wasn’t gasping for breath while screaming out in pain.
Now, before any of you start thinking I was entirely surrounded by idiots, I want to say “Kudos” to three of the nursing staff who were absolutely fantastic, professional, empathetic, and all around wonderful. I even filled out comment cards applauding their care.
Not included was the nurse with the large holes in the elbows of her undershirt who reeked of cigarette smoke and kept violating my personal space with her overly powerful perfume that was a pathetic attempt to cover the reek of tobacco. GAG
Going Home: I was discharged on Tuesday afternoon (2nd of August). Home care pharmacy delivered my tube feeding supplies and a nurse visited to help me get started setting up the tube feedings. (I now have new nurse and I desperately miss Mary. Remind me to tell you about this new nurse some other time – can’t do it today without sounding really snarky.)
My days have been blurry and full of nausea while my nights have been full of vomiting bile. Ended up so dehydrated that I needed 2 litres of fluids on Thursday the 4th at the local immediate care facility (only time I have left home since discharge). Finally feeling a little more human today.
Currently, I am hooking up to j-tube 16 hours a day for nutritional formula and then almost 4 hours a day hooking up to iv fluids via the PICC line to stay hydrated. 20 friggen hours a day! This is not what I was mentally prepared for….not at all. Not sure what how long this is going to last – hopefully not that long because I don’t know if I can deal with only 4 hours of motility a day. The iv fluids require iv pole and that means housebound. The nutrition pump is somewhat portable but it will take a lot of adjusting if I am to go out in public with it. Very cumbersome.
As far as the tube sticking out of my abdomen – the attachment eliminates stitches and I don’t even see where the tube enters my skin (whew). However the long dangling tube (over 12 inches) is distressing. The fact that the tube contraption sticks out a few inches from my skin makes it very visible under clothing is upsetting. The staples that extend down to my belly button make wearing anything with a waistband impossible (staples come out on 10th but healing will take a bit longer). Sweatpants and jammie bottoms are not very attractive.
So, all-in-all, it is done but not functioning as anticipated. The nausea, bile vomit, constant hookup, blah blah blah has me irritable. Being stuck at home has me irritable. To be honest, I am just irritable.
Maybe in a month or so I will look back and this will all be behind me – a person should always hold on to hope (right?).
Until later – keep the positive thoughts coming. I appreciate all the encouraging emails, texts, calls and comments.